Monday, June 21, 2010

Putting myself out there and looking for...

... A new job.


Sadly, in the waaaay to much time it took me to post first actual post, my company downsized. I'd love to say I was surprised, but the writing had been on the wall for a few weeks. While it wasn't a total surprise it was a bit of a shocker.

So, quite literally for the last 3 weeks I have been putting my resume, my work experience, my references, and everything else, out there. And I have had some bites, some interviews, and a couple of suggestions I could head back to a job from the past. But, there is nothing in the world like losing your job (through no fault of my own mind you) to make on feel like a failure.

I had an interview that I thought went well, no I take that back, I thought it went great, I went it with glowing recommendations from people I used to work with, and rave reviews, I talked to the interviewer for over an hour and thought when I left I had sealed the deal.

Wrong.

I had another interview for a job I didn't even apply too, so color my stunned when I got there and had NO IDEA what was going on at the interview. I wont' be hearing back from them any time soon.


I have gotten rejection emails from companies that didn't even have the time of day to interview me. I guess it's better than the waiting game, but what the hell? Way to kick someone when they are down.

I hate interviews, and I hate looking for jobs. I'm an action person, and there are only so many jobs out there to apply too, I spend all day looking, refreshing pages, emailing people I know to see if there is anything out there. This is insanity. I repolish my resume daily, taking things out, putting new things on there, changing descriptions of things, writing coverletters, re-writing coverletters, etc.

It is hard to put yourself out into the world on a piece of paper. My mom always says that once people meet me it's hard not to notice my work ethic and enthusiasm. While I have a halfway decent resume, it's hard to get much from a piece of paper that someone will read for approx 8 seconds.

Le sigh...and then if there is an interview, it's worse than the first day of school, a date, the prom etc. What does one wear to these things? Something formal, but not to formal, business casual is great in NYC and in winter, in LA it's a bit more complicated... no flip flops, fine, easy enough, but then do I wear my black flats or the heels, or the knee high boots? Then make up... how much is too much, surely not going out on a Friday night make up, but how little is too little, you don't want to look like you spend all your time primping, but you don't want to look like you don't care. Hair? Up is more professional, but makes you look a bit stuck up, I work in TV, we don't really need more stuck up people there, down is too laid back, half up half down looks like a child's hair style... dear god.

Once you get in the door, it's a matter of conversation, but once it goes south, how do you get it back, once it delves into off topic things, is it over? And why is it that no one seems to know who they are talking too before they get in the room, why is it they feel the need to go over your resume point by point? ARGH!!

Talk about putting yourself out there! This whole process makes me feel so vulnerable, and frustrated... argh...

But in the mean time, I'm trying a whole host of other fun things to put myself out there... and I'll update with more adventures soon.


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